My heart continues to fill with joy as God showcases his love throughout the world!
Recently, I felt God leading me to truly be his hands and feet in every aspect of my life including my finances.
Meet Abigael: She is a beautiful 6 year old girl from Kenya who lives with her mom and dad who are farmers and 4 brothers and 5 sisters! She enjoys drawing and playing handball! :)
The video below is just a little snipet of her while she is coloring and she is absolutely precious! God's love shines through her smile, what a blessing from heaven she is!
It has been truly an amazing journey as God continues to reveal different areas in my life where he is wanting to transform me into more of his likeness. Not a day goes by that I am not in amazement of his love and guidance. Through prayer and scripture as well as different opportunities throughout my day I am given a glimpse of what God has in store for all who believe and trust in him. What a blessing it is to have the opportunity to become more like him and live out the life of Love that he calls his children to! What an amazing God we serve!
You will be enriched in every way to be generous in every way, which through us will produce thanksgiving to God.
- 2 Corinthians 9:11
So encouraging to see that through every new opportunity he gives us, the joy that overflows in our hearts is able to rejoice with thanksgiving and turn all glory back to God! :)
What a blessing that God would lead me towards sponsorship and be able to support this precious child he created and loves! :)
My World Vision | Helping children around the world
"She knew that she was formed by God's hands dreamed up in His heart and placed in this world for a purpose."
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
Saturday, November 30, 2013
Calvary love - Amy Carmichael
If
I have not compassion on my fellow-servant,
even as my Lord had pity on me,
then I know nothing of Calvary love.
If
I belittle those whome I am called to serve,
talk of their weak points
in contrast perhaps with what I
think of as my strong points'
if I adopt a superior attitude,
forgetting "who made thee to
differ? and what hast thou that
thou hast not received?"
then I know nothing of calvary love.
If
I can easily discuss the shortcomings
and the sins of any;
if i can speak in casual way even
of a child's misdoings,
then I know nothing of Calvary love.
If
I find myself half-carelessly taking
lapses for granted,
"Oh, that's what they always do,"
"Oh, of course she talks like that,
he acts like that,"
then I know nothing of Calvary love.
If
I can enjoy a joke at the expense of
another;
if I can in anyway slight another in
conversation,
or even in thought,
then I know nothing of Calvary love.
If
I can write an unkind letter,
speak an unkind word,
think an unkind thought without
grief or shame,
then I know nothing of Calvary love.
If
I do not feel far more for the grieved
Savior than for my worried self
when troublesome things occur,
then i know nothing of Calvary love.
If
I know little of His pitifulness
(the Lord turned and looked upon Peter),
if I know little of His courage of
hopefulness for the truly humble
and penitent
(He said unto him, "Feed My lambs"),
then I know nothing of Calvary love.
If
I deal with wrong for any other
reason than that implied in the
words,
"From His right hand went a fiery
law for them Yea, He loved
the people";
if I can rebuke without a pang,
then I know nothing of Calvary love.
If
my attitude be one of fear, not faith,
about one who has disappointed
me;
if I say, "Just what I expected," if a
fall occurs,
then I know nothing of Calvary love.
If
I do not look with eyes of hope on
all in whom there is even a faith
beginning,
as our Lord did, when,
just after His disciples had
wrangled about which of them
should be accounted the greatest,
He softened His rebuke with those
heart-melting words, "Ye are
they which continued with Me in My temptations,"
then I know nothing of Calvary love.
If
I have not the patience of my
Savior with souls who grow
slowly;
if I know little of travail (a sharp
and painful thing) till Christ be fully formed in them,
then I know nothing of Calvary love.
If
I am afraid to speak the truth, lest I
lost affection,
or lest the one concerned should
say, "You do not understand,"
or because I fear to lose my
reputation for kindness;
if I put my own good name before
the other's highest good,
then I know nothing of Calvary love.
If
my attitude be one of fear, not faith,
about one who has disappointed
me;
if I say, "Just what I expected," if a
fall occurs,
then I know nothing of Calvary love.
If
I do not look with eyes of hope on
all in whom there is even a faith
beginning,
as our Lord did, when,
just after His disciples had
wrangled about which of them
should be accounted the greatest,
He softened His rebuke with those
heart-melting words, "Ye are
they which continued with Me in My temptations,"
then I know nothing of Calvary love.
If
I have not the patience of my
Savior with souls who grow
slowly;
if I know little of travail (a sharp
and painful thing) till Christ be fully formed in them,
then I know nothing of Calvary love.
If
I am afraid to speak the truth, lest I
lost affection,
or lest the one concerned should
say, "You do not understand,"
or because I fear to lose my
reputation for kindness;
if I put my own good name before
the other's highest good,
then I know nothing of Calvary love.
Thursday, October 3, 2013
Joy
Recently the word and definition of "joy" has been on my heart. The difference between happiness and joy has come into my thoughts daily as I look to become involved in things down here that add to the joy that Christ is continually growing in my heart.
I used to think to myself: "Every day is a new day; a new day for change, happiness, and to simply have a fresh start."
Through Christ's word it has been revealed that not only is every day new, but every moment is new. Every single moment of our lives we have the choice to turn anything around. Through Christ's love and salvation we no longer need to look at what we did 10 mins ago with shame and disappointment. But instead embrace the power of the cross and the sacrifice Christ made for us so that our hearts could begin to fill with joy through his gift.
"In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the richest of God's grace."
Ephesians 1:7
Through reflections such as these I have been able to see that through Christ alone is joy able to truly fill my heart. As the walls of my heart can get muddied up with regret, shame and doubt Christ continues to take a wash cloth drenched in his blood to clean up every single mess I have allowed to live in my heart, where only his grace, and glory should abound.
My heart continues to fill with joy with every new adventure God has me embarking on. Looking back and realizing I could have never laid out this path for my life through my own doing humbles me before my King. I have met so many amazing, godly individuals here in Rochester who have continued to push me towards the young woman that Christ has created me to be.
I continue to pray that the writings that make up this blog are all to the glory of Christ. Not for humanly recognition but for his glory only. Keep running towards Christ, digging into his word and allowing your heart to be completely in awe of his glory and love!
"May our Lord Jesus Christ himself and God our Father, who loved us and by his grace gave us eternal encouragement and good hope, encourage your hearts and strengthen you in every good deed and word."
2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
I used to think to myself: "Every day is a new day; a new day for change, happiness, and to simply have a fresh start."
Through Christ's word it has been revealed that not only is every day new, but every moment is new. Every single moment of our lives we have the choice to turn anything around. Through Christ's love and salvation we no longer need to look at what we did 10 mins ago with shame and disappointment. But instead embrace the power of the cross and the sacrifice Christ made for us so that our hearts could begin to fill with joy through his gift.
"In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the richest of God's grace."
Ephesians 1:7
Through reflections such as these I have been able to see that through Christ alone is joy able to truly fill my heart. As the walls of my heart can get muddied up with regret, shame and doubt Christ continues to take a wash cloth drenched in his blood to clean up every single mess I have allowed to live in my heart, where only his grace, and glory should abound.
My heart continues to fill with joy with every new adventure God has me embarking on. Looking back and realizing I could have never laid out this path for my life through my own doing humbles me before my King. I have met so many amazing, godly individuals here in Rochester who have continued to push me towards the young woman that Christ has created me to be.
I continue to pray that the writings that make up this blog are all to the glory of Christ. Not for humanly recognition but for his glory only. Keep running towards Christ, digging into his word and allowing your heart to be completely in awe of his glory and love!
"May our Lord Jesus Christ himself and God our Father, who loved us and by his grace gave us eternal encouragement and good hope, encourage your hearts and strengthen you in every good deed and word."
2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
Tuesday, September 10, 2013
Clarity
"Jesus answered,'Everyone who drinks this living water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.'"
John 4.13
I have met a few people in my life who seem to be always thirsty. They either carry around a water bottle with them, or they go through 6 glasses of a beverage at dinner. It always amazed me that they were able to still eat their dinner on top of drinking about a gallon of water before, during, and after their meal!
I have always been the type of person to kind of ignore my body's thirst signal. I know it's not the healthiest of things to do. Whether I was running around during college or now as I have been working on a post-surgical floor it seems almost impossible to have time to take a few sips of water throughout my day. My body has gotten accustomed to it's signals of thirst and I am able to make it through my whole day without having any water.
I have always been the type of person to kind of ignore my body's thirst signal. I know it's not the healthiest of things to do. Whether I was running around during college or now as I have been working on a post-surgical floor it seems almost impossible to have time to take a few sips of water throughout my day. My body has gotten accustomed to it's signals of thirst and I am able to make it through my whole day without having any water.
On top of not drinking enough water, I have found that recently as I have begun doing the Insanity workout series that even that doesn't seem to increase my desires for hydration. I have to intentionally fill a glass of water and drink it all because I know I won't remember how much fluid i lost during my work out and just go about my day.
It was during my prayer time this morning that I began to see how my thirst for scripture was similar to my thirst for earthly water.
I make it a point of my day to spend time with God. In prayer for a few moments, and then reading and reflecting on teachings of his word. However God has revealed to me that I have been neglecting the power of his word, his living water.
Just like when I finish up with my insanity work out I am wanting to run to the cupboard and grab a bite to eat instead of drinking water, I have been running to other people's teachings instead of God's handwritten words.
Just as neglecting my bodily thirst for hydration, I have been neglecting my hearts desire to interact and hear from Christ through his living water.
Insanity is an difficult workout requiring a lot of physical energy and endurance to complete each workout, and just as much motivation to start the video the next day. Without the water my body is thirsting for it is difficult. I can't replenish my body, and I am not able to physically quench my bodies desire for moisture as I have grown use to just eating instead of drinking. I am filling my body with a replacement for water.
It is true that through hearing other leaders interpretations of biblical truth i have grown stronger in my faith. Still however it seems to me that I have the thirst for living truth that is never quenched after hearing a message. As Jesus says to the woman at the well ""If you knew the gift of God and who it is that asks you for a drink, you would have asked him and he would have given you living water." John 4. 10. -- "whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst." Oh what truth! Only Christs words, and instructions can give me the satisfaction of his love and his will for my life.
Running to the cupboard instead of the faucet has to stop! Just as I need to stop running to other people for interpretation of Christs word. I fully believe it's healthly and beneficial to hear sermons and so on, however I feel it is absolutely vital to continue to interact daily with Christs word, and his instructions. God created us all to be unique individuals who, while working together in community can have an impact in this fallen world. I know I need to be receptive to his calling, his leading and most importantly the words and instructions he has left with us in his Holy Bible.
What a blessing it has been to be able to connect with many messages from different individuals about Biblical truth. However, being able to see just how important individual biblical study is has opened my eyes to completely satisfying the desires of my heart.
Thursday, July 25, 2013
Beautiful Beginnings
There is nothing more reassuring than knowing you are exactly where God wants you to be.
In February when I began feeling God leading me towards Rochester I felt a sense of peace as I felt his calling. My patience was strengthened as there wasn't any signs that a job would actually be open for me to apply to. With one step forward at a time and daily prayers for continued guidance and patience I waited to see what God would do. Previously I wrote about the holy spirit speaking to me about God being able to do the impossible despite what society might think. (My Reality)
In February when I began feeling God leading me towards Rochester I felt a sense of peace as I felt his calling. My patience was strengthened as there wasn't any signs that a job would actually be open for me to apply to. With one step forward at a time and daily prayers for continued guidance and patience I waited to see what God would do. Previously I wrote about the holy spirit speaking to me about God being able to do the impossible despite what society might think. (My Reality)
By God's grace the answer to my prayers were revealed to me and I felt comfort knowing I was being obedient to where I felt the Holy Spirit leading me. I was offered a job when few were being opened. I felt tremendously blessed and couldn't wait to see what God was going to have in store for me as I moved down to Rochester.
As the big moving day began approaching apprehension developed in my heart as I realized I was moving out of my parents house and beginning my life in a new town. This was a different kind of apprehension than attending college as I knew that Rochester would soon become my permanent address. God never left my side through the move and as I adjusted to living on my own. It's amazing how there were moments when I felt as if I was moving alone that I was able to see that God never leaves my side. And as I have continued to grow closer to him and rely on him for everything the transition isn't something that I am nervous about anymore. I instead am able to acknowledge the loneliness that comes from being away from my family, and accept that my mission here on earth is to bring glory to God where ever he calls me to be.
As the big moving day began approaching apprehension developed in my heart as I realized I was moving out of my parents house and beginning my life in a new town. This was a different kind of apprehension than attending college as I knew that Rochester would soon become my permanent address. God never left my side through the move and as I adjusted to living on my own. It's amazing how there were moments when I felt as if I was moving alone that I was able to see that God never leaves my side. And as I have continued to grow closer to him and rely on him for everything the transition isn't something that I am nervous about anymore. I instead am able to acknowledge the loneliness that comes from being away from my family, and accept that my mission here on earth is to bring glory to God where ever he calls me to be.
Below is a story of his faithfulness that leaves me speechless in amazement at his never ending faithfulness and love towards those who earnestly seek him and his will.
I woke up last Sunday morning (7/21) unsure of what church to attend. I was trying to decide between two and woke up feeling like I had a real thirst to dive into God's word and drink up his truth. I felt like God wanted me to once again step out of my comfort zone and try something new, as I felt led to attend a newer church in the community and one that I had not attended last summer as a Summer III.
As I sat through the service at Harvest Bible Chapel Rochester I felt completely consumed by God. Although I was sitting alone, not knowing anyone in the congregation I felt completely satisfied knowing that I had followed God's leading once again. I went to the "Welcome Table" after the service and was welcomed by a woman who was glowing with the spirit of Christ. She walked me around the church and introduced me to people and then to a group of young adults in the church. From there I was in complete amazement at God's faithfulness and love as I was able to enjoy an afternoon/evening with the group of young adults whom I now very much consider my friends. A parade and dinner Sunday night, berry picking Monday night, and a ladies cooking night on Wednesday.
What a blessing it was to meet so many new people who are also completely surrendered to Christ. I am still in complete amazement at what happens when I truly give God the pen to my life and he scripts a story and a life I could never create on my own. I can't wait to see where he continues to lead me.
I woke up last Sunday morning (7/21) unsure of what church to attend. I was trying to decide between two and woke up feeling like I had a real thirst to dive into God's word and drink up his truth. I felt like God wanted me to once again step out of my comfort zone and try something new, as I felt led to attend a newer church in the community and one that I had not attended last summer as a Summer III.
As I sat through the service at Harvest Bible Chapel Rochester I felt completely consumed by God. Although I was sitting alone, not knowing anyone in the congregation I felt completely satisfied knowing that I had followed God's leading once again. I went to the "Welcome Table" after the service and was welcomed by a woman who was glowing with the spirit of Christ. She walked me around the church and introduced me to people and then to a group of young adults in the church. From there I was in complete amazement at God's faithfulness and love as I was able to enjoy an afternoon/evening with the group of young adults whom I now very much consider my friends. A parade and dinner Sunday night, berry picking Monday night, and a ladies cooking night on Wednesday.
What a blessing it was to meet so many new people who are also completely surrendered to Christ. I am still in complete amazement at what happens when I truly give God the pen to my life and he scripts a story and a life I could never create on my own. I can't wait to see where he continues to lead me.
Proverbs 3:5-6
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."
Friday, June 7, 2013
John 13.7
John 13.7
Jesus replied, "You do not realize what I am doing, but later you will understand."
This passage really struck me today as I was reflecting back on everything that has happened this past year.
Many times I have been in prayer begging God to show me direction, to help me understand why things were happening as they were. I know in my mind at the time I reminded myself that I needed to look at the bigger picture. That perhaps, God was using each obstacle and each opportunity to prune me into the person he created me to be. However, as I was reflecting on this passage in this way I began to wonder exactly what context Jesus was saying these words.
When I looked up the passage/chapter I found these words are spoken to his disciples as they are questioning what he is doing (and I was doing in a similar fashion...) After reading chapter 13 I was able to see a more precise picture of what was happening as Jesus was talking to his disciples.
The washing of feet is one important aspect of New Testament times. Foot washing was done by the poor or by someone of a lower societal status. Only when individuals were showing great love would "equals" drop down to clean off their loved one's feet. Can you picture yourself washing someone's feet who had been walking around on the dirty roads and having been covered only by the straps on the sandals?
If you know me pretty well you would know that I have this "foot thing"... And It's not a positive "foot thing". I dislike feet quite a bit (x100). The thought of getting down and cleaning someone's foot after they had been sweating and walking around in dirt all day is definitely not appealing to me. It would cause me to become very uncomfortable if i didn't have the proper latex gloves to provide as a barrier to the foot in which I was washing (With hopefully lavender smelling soap mixed into the water) .
As I am sure you probably already know they didn't have the luxury of latex gloves or lavender soap to make the experience more enjoyable for the person doing the washing. However, when I began looking deeper into the meaning of the foot washing I realized that's not what it's about at all. It's not about the comfort of the person washing the foot. Foot washing is all about being humble; laying down one's comfort for the love of their neighbor.
As i reflected back onto the passage of Jesus telling his disciples "You do not realize what i am doing, but later you will understand" I came to a realization myself concerning this past year. Everything that I encountered that made me "uncomfortable" in my skin, or had me frightened and leery of what God was doing perhaps was not for my comfort at all. It was helping me develop my relationship with Christ so that through my discomfort i would better glorify him and testify of his love and faithfulness.
I have a God who holds me as I search for answers to certain things. But I believe my trials are all for the furthering of his kingdom. For me this passage was reflective of my desire to accomplish things that make me uncomfortable. Foot washing would be one thing. I knew when I accepted salvation it wouldn't be daisy and roses everyday. However, I knew there was a promise of a glorious ending for those who endure the hardships of this world and prosecution in Jesus' name.
A picture of every knee bowed and tongue confessing God has the fire in my soul ignited to go out and make disciples. I'll get down and dirty, maybe I will figuratively "wash feet" for people as they are searching for God's love. Goodness, I will have a huge smile on my face perhaps the next time I wash one of my patients feet! :) I know in those moments I will recall exactly what Christ calls me as a follower to do daily; to give up my desires and comfort for his mission. Just as Christ showed humility, I desire to become more like him.
" I know that the experiences of our lives, when we let God use the, become the mysterious and perfect preparation for the work He will give us to do."
- Corrie Ten Boom -
Jesus replied, "You do not realize what I am doing, but later you will understand."
This passage really struck me today as I was reflecting back on everything that has happened this past year.
Many times I have been in prayer begging God to show me direction, to help me understand why things were happening as they were. I know in my mind at the time I reminded myself that I needed to look at the bigger picture. That perhaps, God was using each obstacle and each opportunity to prune me into the person he created me to be. However, as I was reflecting on this passage in this way I began to wonder exactly what context Jesus was saying these words.
When I looked up the passage/chapter I found these words are spoken to his disciples as they are questioning what he is doing (and I was doing in a similar fashion...) After reading chapter 13 I was able to see a more precise picture of what was happening as Jesus was talking to his disciples.
The washing of feet is one important aspect of New Testament times. Foot washing was done by the poor or by someone of a lower societal status. Only when individuals were showing great love would "equals" drop down to clean off their loved one's feet. Can you picture yourself washing someone's feet who had been walking around on the dirty roads and having been covered only by the straps on the sandals?
If you know me pretty well you would know that I have this "foot thing"... And It's not a positive "foot thing". I dislike feet quite a bit (x100). The thought of getting down and cleaning someone's foot after they had been sweating and walking around in dirt all day is definitely not appealing to me. It would cause me to become very uncomfortable if i didn't have the proper latex gloves to provide as a barrier to the foot in which I was washing (With hopefully lavender smelling soap mixed into the water) .
As I am sure you probably already know they didn't have the luxury of latex gloves or lavender soap to make the experience more enjoyable for the person doing the washing. However, when I began looking deeper into the meaning of the foot washing I realized that's not what it's about at all. It's not about the comfort of the person washing the foot. Foot washing is all about being humble; laying down one's comfort for the love of their neighbor.
As i reflected back onto the passage of Jesus telling his disciples "You do not realize what i am doing, but later you will understand" I came to a realization myself concerning this past year. Everything that I encountered that made me "uncomfortable" in my skin, or had me frightened and leery of what God was doing perhaps was not for my comfort at all. It was helping me develop my relationship with Christ so that through my discomfort i would better glorify him and testify of his love and faithfulness.
I have a God who holds me as I search for answers to certain things. But I believe my trials are all for the furthering of his kingdom. For me this passage was reflective of my desire to accomplish things that make me uncomfortable. Foot washing would be one thing. I knew when I accepted salvation it wouldn't be daisy and roses everyday. However, I knew there was a promise of a glorious ending for those who endure the hardships of this world and prosecution in Jesus' name.
A picture of every knee bowed and tongue confessing God has the fire in my soul ignited to go out and make disciples. I'll get down and dirty, maybe I will figuratively "wash feet" for people as they are searching for God's love. Goodness, I will have a huge smile on my face perhaps the next time I wash one of my patients feet! :) I know in those moments I will recall exactly what Christ calls me as a follower to do daily; to give up my desires and comfort for his mission. Just as Christ showed humility, I desire to become more like him.
" I know that the experiences of our lives, when we let God use the, become the mysterious and perfect preparation for the work He will give us to do."
- Corrie Ten Boom -
Tuesday, April 30, 2013
{Meant to Be}
Over the past few weeks I have been thinking about what God's will might be for my life. Through much reflection, prayer, and time spent in God's word I have been able to gain some understanding of this new chaos for me.
Philippians 2:13
I have come to realize God's will for my life is not necessarily just in the years to come, and the big decisions I will be making as graduation approaches. But instead, it is being lived out on a daily basis.Whether it be helping someone out around me, or simply smiling as I pass by a stranger. Every moment has been sculpted by God for his plan. I am able to see the power of his will for my life in every moment.
While I was job searching I prayed earnestly that God would lead me in the direction he needed me. I want to continue to pursue his love and be able to share that love with his people.
After many prayers I officially accepted a job offer as an Registered Nurse in Rochester, MN at St. Mary's Hospital on their Neurology/Neurosurgery unit.
I will be working with patients post-surgery and I can't wait to be able to care for my patients as Christ would want them cared for. Just the thought of helping them brings a smile to my face :)
I will be working with patients post-surgery and I can't wait to be able to care for my patients as Christ would want them cared for. Just the thought of helping them brings a smile to my face :)
"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."
-Deuteronomy 31:6
This verse has been strengthening to me as I go through these exciting yet frightening changes. It's difficult to wrap my mind around the idea that I am packing up all my belongings and moving permanently to a location to work and not just attend school.
With the acceptance of the job I feel God has been using this as a way for me to draw closer to him. Although I am nervous about the move and meeting people, I take comfort knowing that God will never leave me. He is my one sure foundation and comfort when everything is new and frightening.
With the acceptance of the job I feel God has been using this as a way for me to draw closer to him. Although I am nervous about the move and meeting people, I take comfort knowing that God will never leave me. He is my one sure foundation and comfort when everything is new and frightening.
I feel extremely blessed to have spent the last 4 years at St. Scholastica being a part of many activities and organizations. I have met so many amazing people that have had such a big impact on me. Knowing that everything was a part of God's plan to get me where I am today and where I will be going continues to encourage me in my faith walk.
As I stated earlier I am following God's will for my life. Moment by moment, day by day. It's an exciting and crazy ride and I am comforted knowing that God is in control of it all.
Thursday, April 11, 2013
{A Powerful Reminder}
4 weeks until graduation and it seems as if time is just picking up speed. I feel blessed to be where I am at in my life and for the season in my life that is drawing to a close for me.
Through these past couple weeks there have been many moments where planning for the future and not knowing where God may want me has caused me to feel overwhelmed.
I feel incredibly blessed to have a Mom who is strong in her faith who supports me and is encouraging of God's plan for my life. I feel like through stress and the business life brings Satan tries to drag me down and leave me feeling defeated.
Hearing this song is such a powerful reminder of who I am and what really matters. The opening lyrics to the song:
If my heart is overwhelmed
And I cannot hear Your voice
I hold on to what is true
Though I cannot see
And I cannot hear Your voice
I hold on to what is true
Though I cannot see
If the storms of life they come
And the road ahead gets steep
I will lift these hands in faith
I will believe
And the road ahead gets steep
I will lift these hands in faith
I will believe
These words and chords ring through my heart. Gently I feel the Holy Spirit come to life again as I hold onto the truth I know and the identity that I have in Christ is what really matters in this world.
Constant connection and prayer with God is the only thing that makes things seem bearable to me at this time in my life. As I have submitted applications to jobs I am in prayer and trusting that God will place me exactly where he wants me. I'm not concerned about not being good enough but rather where God needs me to make a difference in his kingdom. I know I have the ability to care for patients, and the exciting thing about my faith right now is a reminder that God already knows which patients will one day cross paths with me and I'll be able to care for! I'm ready to reach out to people, and he has the perfect patients and people written into his plan. I am not sure where it will be but I know where ever it is God will be also. And in that I find great comfort.
As graduation draws near and decisions are needing to be made it's amazing to know what really matters and who I can run to!
Friday, April 5, 2013
Christ is Risen
What a great victory! Christ is Risen! There was a song that played this year at Easter as a part of my churches "SONrise" service. Christ is Risen - Matt Maher
I completely lost my voice due to a respiratory infection for the holiday weekend so I feel blessed that I was able to reflect on the words that were being sung in celebration of Jesus' resurrection.
Below is the video for the song, and I have reflected on my connection to the song in awe of Jesus' love and sacrifice!
Below is the video for the song, and I have reflected on my connection to the song in awe of Jesus' love and sacrifice!
Let no one caught in sin remain
Inside the lie of inward shame
We fix our eyes upon the cross
And run to him who showed great love
And bled for us
Freely you bled, for us
(There are times in our lives where we are kind of in a slump. I like how he refers to it as "the lie of inward shame" because it is a lie. Seeing this line gives me a breath of fresh air knowing that through Jesus we no longer have to bear that shame. That we are human and are of the sinful nature, he doesn't want us harboring those feelings of guilt in our hearts any longer. He died for us willingly, he hung on a cross to die... for us, for our sins. We are so blessed to have a God who is so incredibly in love with us, that he would endure such pain, just imagine the sacrifice, the submission, the love.)
Christ is risen from the dead
Trampling over death by death
Come awake, come awake!
Come and rise up from the grave!
Christ is risen from the dead
We are one with him again
Come awake, come awake!
Come and rise up from the grave!
(What really stood out to me during the chorus was "We are one with him again". After the fall in the garden there was a separation between God and humans. Through offerings people have been paying their dues to God for their sins, but it was never enough. Through Christ we are finally able to meet God right were we are in our lives. Even though we still sin by forgiveness he looks at us clean through the sacrifice of his Son Jesus. The connection is finally made whole and we are finally "one again", we are perfect to him! That is Amazing LOVE! :) )
Beneath the weight of all our sin
You bow to none but heavens will
No scheme of hell, no scoffer's crown
No burden great can hold you down
In strength you reign
Forever let your church proclaim
(Hearing all his children sing this song and proclaim his resurrection in church was absolutely amazing. I like to close my eyes and just try and imagine how joyous the voices will be when everyone is singing his praise.
Philippians 2:10-11 - That at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue acknowledge that JEsus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father."
That will be the Most AMAZING worship in the World!!)
Christ is risen from the dead
Trampling over death by death
Come awake, come awake!
Come and rise up from the grave
Christ is risen from the dead
We are one with him again
Come awake, come awake!
Come and rise up from the grave
Oh death! Where is your sting?
Oh hell! Where is your victory?
Oh Church! Come stand in the light!
The glory of God has defeated the night!
Oh death! Where is your sting?
Oh hell! Where is your victory?
Oh Church! Come stand in the light!
Our God is not dead, he's alive! he's alive!
(I love this portion of the song! As the instrumental aspect of the song picks up pace it really feels like a joyous celebration! He's Alive, He's alive! I can't imagine what it would feel like being one of the disciples when Jesus came back to life and proclaiming he is alive! In reflection during church I thought about our ability to still be exclaiming that he has risen and he is alive! Alive within us! So cool :) )
Christ is risen from the dead
Trampling over death by death
Come awake, come awake!
Come and rise up from the grave
Christ is risen from the dead
We are one with him again
Come awake, come awake!
Come and rise up from the grave
Rise up from the grave...
Friday, March 29, 2013
Looking ahead....
It is my final semester of my undergraduate education...
Wow! where has the time gone? Its quite amazing to think that I have really been attending CSS for 4 years already and i will soon be leaving.
So many people are asking the question of what will I be doing once I am done and graduate in May.
i was blessed this past summer to have been given the opportunity to work as an intern down in Rochester at the Mayo clinic. I learned so much about myself and about nursing that when I left there I knew instantly I wanted to head back down there and work once I was done with school.
As my summer came to a close and I was heading back to school I began trusting God with everything in my life. I began seeking his wisdom and direction of where he might want me next year.
Maybe that would mean he wanted me down in Rochester?
Maybe he wanted me in a totally different state?
Maybe he wanted me back home? Or in Duluth?
I prayed a lot about where he might want me placed or what he might want me doing.
Then when I came back to school I was offered the opportunity to work with an organization at school and perhaps begin working mission work on college campuses. When this came about I was completely at a loss of what to do. I didn't know if God was leading me in a totally different direction than nursing. But I had to be willing to go. And so I continued praying. This time adding the thought that I might not be needed in the nursing field at all.
Through much prayer and reflection on God's word as well as listening to many sermons my eyes began opening up to the need I feel God leading me to.
I began feeling called to Rochester again a couple weeks ago. i don't know how to explain how I knew exactly what God was leading me towards but I began to see that he wanted me down there he would make it happen and he most assuredly would never leave my side.
I believe God is shaping me into who I am as a woman in Christ and he certainly has given me a spirit willing to lead groups and people. But I also feel that he is not calling me into the typical mission field most people think of.
But rather he is calling me to the mission field where I will be the minority. Where i won't have someone I can talk to about my faith necessarily but rather be a light in the darkness to people who need his hope.
Wow! where has the time gone? Its quite amazing to think that I have really been attending CSS for 4 years already and i will soon be leaving.
So many people are asking the question of what will I be doing once I am done and graduate in May.
i was blessed this past summer to have been given the opportunity to work as an intern down in Rochester at the Mayo clinic. I learned so much about myself and about nursing that when I left there I knew instantly I wanted to head back down there and work once I was done with school.
As my summer came to a close and I was heading back to school I began trusting God with everything in my life. I began seeking his wisdom and direction of where he might want me next year.
Maybe that would mean he wanted me down in Rochester?
Maybe he wanted me in a totally different state?
Maybe he wanted me back home? Or in Duluth?
I prayed a lot about where he might want me placed or what he might want me doing.
Then when I came back to school I was offered the opportunity to work with an organization at school and perhaps begin working mission work on college campuses. When this came about I was completely at a loss of what to do. I didn't know if God was leading me in a totally different direction than nursing. But I had to be willing to go. And so I continued praying. This time adding the thought that I might not be needed in the nursing field at all.
Through much prayer and reflection on God's word as well as listening to many sermons my eyes began opening up to the need I feel God leading me to.
I began feeling called to Rochester again a couple weeks ago. i don't know how to explain how I knew exactly what God was leading me towards but I began to see that he wanted me down there he would make it happen and he most assuredly would never leave my side.
I believe God is shaping me into who I am as a woman in Christ and he certainly has given me a spirit willing to lead groups and people. But I also feel that he is not calling me into the typical mission field most people think of.
But rather he is calling me to the mission field where I will be the minority. Where i won't have someone I can talk to about my faith necessarily but rather be a light in the darkness to people who need his hope.
Friday, February 8, 2013
Seasons
In my last post I mentioned that I was living throughout the seasons in my life really taking them in.
Just recently there have been some more changes in my life. I have been hanging out and talking to a gentleman who was involved with the same small groups we have at my college campus. We would spend out time running, talking, and going to church and bible studies.
After previous relationships I was on the mend. I didn't want to hurt again and most importantly I didn't want to hurt someone else again. I began praying about where God would want this new friendship to go and continued on with my life. I know I have recently been struggling with the idea of where in my life God needs me. Does he need me completely single? To reach the other singles out there? Or is he ready for me to start being an example in a Christ Centered relationship?
I want everything I do to glorify God. Now I am only human and of course I sin everyday of my life. I don't always do what needs to be done or react in a situation faithfully reflecting my Lord and Savior.
But I am a work in progress. And we really all are. We are all down here separated from God. Its an evident disconnection if you look at everything that is happening in our World today. through the holy spirit however we are connected. And it is through this connection that I feel my needs and longings that I use to search for in my earthly relationships vanish and be fulfilled in God and in him alone.
Everything is new to me. When I wrote awhile back about being a new creation that exactly what I am doing. I am born again. I'm learning to walk, learning what is acceptable to God and trying my best to reflect his love and compassion to his lost world.
As I continue to walk through these Seasons of my life I hope to only bring honor and Glory to the most important thing in my life; the one at the center of my life. My seasons are changing and the one true constant is God. As my last semester of my undergraduate career begins I look forward to this season and the seasons ahead wherever God may lead me!
Just recently there have been some more changes in my life. I have been hanging out and talking to a gentleman who was involved with the same small groups we have at my college campus. We would spend out time running, talking, and going to church and bible studies.
After previous relationships I was on the mend. I didn't want to hurt again and most importantly I didn't want to hurt someone else again. I began praying about where God would want this new friendship to go and continued on with my life. I know I have recently been struggling with the idea of where in my life God needs me. Does he need me completely single? To reach the other singles out there? Or is he ready for me to start being an example in a Christ Centered relationship?
I want everything I do to glorify God. Now I am only human and of course I sin everyday of my life. I don't always do what needs to be done or react in a situation faithfully reflecting my Lord and Savior.
But I am a work in progress. And we really all are. We are all down here separated from God. Its an evident disconnection if you look at everything that is happening in our World today. through the holy spirit however we are connected. And it is through this connection that I feel my needs and longings that I use to search for in my earthly relationships vanish and be fulfilled in God and in him alone.
Everything is new to me. When I wrote awhile back about being a new creation that exactly what I am doing. I am born again. I'm learning to walk, learning what is acceptable to God and trying my best to reflect his love and compassion to his lost world.
As I continue to walk through these Seasons of my life I hope to only bring honor and Glory to the most important thing in my life; the one at the center of my life. My seasons are changing and the one true constant is God. As my last semester of my undergraduate career begins I look forward to this season and the seasons ahead wherever God may lead me!
Friday, February 1, 2013
"Content in Him"
Content is exactly how I am feeling at this time in my life.
It was while I was in Belize that I was able to fully let go with my grip on time. I had gotten so accustomed to watching my watch to see what activities I had next and in doing so I lost the joy of spending time in the activity I was currently doing.
For example: I have found joy in singing once again. Last semester it seemed I was so busy trying to get things done for nursing and other activities I was involved in that I didn't allow myself to fully enjoy my choral rehearsals. I would show up for class, sing along with my music but I would never go deeper, or go further. I would continually be looking to what I had to do immediately afterward.
God didn't want me living like that anymore. And most importantly I have been able to see and understand exactly why in Ecclesiastes he talkes about there being a time for every activity under the sun.
{Ecclesiastes 3.1 There is a time for everything, and a season for everything under the heavens}
I have found joy in all the simple things again. Although I am extremely busy with nursing, tennis, choir and the small groups I am a part of I am able to use my time in each activity to give God glory!
He has blessed me with so much and I continue to thank him daily for where he has me at this time in my life.
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